MY BIG FAMILY

GOD HAS BLESSED ALL OF US WITH WONDERFUL FAMILIES ...AND HERE'S MINE.

My Parents,My Children, Cousins, Aunt and Uncle on New Year's Day 2009, SACRAMENTO,CA.


My Cousins ,My Parents and Nephew and Niece My Dad's 75th bday 2009 VALLEJO,CA.


My 2 Brothers back Home 2004 PHILIPPINES


OUR FAMILY FUN MEMORIES

THE NEW MEMBER OF OUR FAMILY..."CHAMP" 3 MOS.OLD GERMAN SHEPERD

X'MAS 2004 LAS VEGAS


JUSTIN'S 13TH BDAY 2005 LAS VEGAS


FAMILY BOWLING NIGHT AT SAM'S TOWN LAS VEGAS 2005


MT.CHARLESTON NEVADA 2006


2004 CA

ARE YOU PREPARED FOR HIS COMING???

HE IS RISEN!!! LET'S ALL REJOICE AND BE GLAD.

Easter is a wonderful time of year. Very spiritual and very uplifting. When you stop to think of Easter. It is a time of miracles. The promise of Easter is not only that ... He has risen ... Easter symbolizes ... We too shall rise. For where He is, we shall be also. The spiritual energy is amazing. It breaks chains and lifts us up and it gives us another chance ... a chance to love ... a chance to live ... a chance to strive higher towards achieving a happier state of being. The promise of Easter tells us that we can rise above any obstacle and we can find love, happiness, success and joy and we can be content in a world that is constantly in upheaval and so we celebrate a beautiful memory or a miraculous event and try to live up to the miracle in our own lives.

"And he departed from our sight that we might return to our heart, and there find Him. For He departed, and behold, He is here."
-- St. Augustine

"This is the promise that He hath promised us, even eternal life."
-- 1 John 2:25

"I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in Me, though he may die, he shall live. And whoever lives and believes in Me shall never die."
-- John 11:25-26

"Jesus said to her, 'I am the resurrection and the life. He who believes in me will live, even though he dies; and whoever lives and believes in me will never die.'"
-- John 11:25-26 NIV

"But God raised him from the dead, freeing him from the agony of death, because it was impossible for death to keep its hold on him."
-- Acts 2:24 NIV

"This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us. And we ought to lay down our lives for our brothers."
-- 1 John 3:16 NIV

"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life."
-- John 3:16 NIV

FORGIVENESS

How do I know when I've truly forgiven someone?

Forgiveness may result in sincerely spoken words such as "I forgive you" or tender actions that fit the relationship. But more than this, forgiveness brings a kind of peace that helps you go on with life. The offense is no longer front and center in your thoughts or feelings. Your hostility, resentment and misery have made way for compassion, kindness and peace.

Also, remember that forgiveness often isn't a one-time thing. It begins with a decision, but because memories or another set of words or actions may trigger old feelings, you may need to recommit to forgiveness over and over again.

What if the person I'm forgiving doesn't change?

Getting the other person to change their actions, behavior or words isn't the point of forgiveness. In fact, the other person may never change or apologize for the offense. Think of forgiveness more about how it can change your life — by bringing you more peace, happiness, and emotional and spiritual healing.

Forgiveness takes away the power the other person continues to wield in your life. Through forgiveness, you choose to no longer define yourself as a victim. Forgiveness is done primarily for yourself, and less so for the person who wronged you.

What if I'm the one who needs forgiveness?

It may help to spend some time thinking about the offense you've committed and trying to determine the effect it has had on others. Unless it may cause more harm or distress, consider admitting the wrong you've done to those you've harmed, speaking of your sincere sorrow or regret, and specifically asking for forgiveness — without making excuses.

But if this seems unwise because it may further harm or distress, don't do it — it's not about making yourself feel better by apologizing. You don't want to add salt to a painful wound. Also, keep in mind that you can't force someone to forgive you. They will need to move to forgiveness in their own time.

In any case, we hav e to be willing to forgive ourselves. Holding on to resentment against yourself can be just as toxic as holding on to resentment against someone else. Recognize that poor behavior or mistakes don't make you worthless or bad.
Accept the fact that you — like everyone else — aren't perfect. Accept yourself despite your faults. Admit your mistakes. Commit to treating others with compassion, empathy and respect. And again, talking with a spiritual leader, mental health provider or trusted friend or relative may be helpful.

Forgiveness of yourself or someone else, though not easy, can transform your life. Instead of dwelling on the injustice and revenge, instead of being angry and bitter, you can move toward a life of peace, compassion, mercy, joy and kindness

How do I reach a state of forgiveness?


Forgiveness is a commitment to a process of change. It can be difficult and it can take time. Everyone moves toward forgiveness a little differently. One step is to recognize the value of forgiveness and its importance in our lives at a given time.

Another is to reflect on the facts of the situation, how we've reacted, and h ow this combination has affected our lives, our health and our well-being. Then, as we are ready, we can actively choose to forgive the one who has offended us. In this way, we move away from our role as a victim and release the control and power the offending person and situation have had in our lives.

Forgiveness also means that we change old patterns of beliefs and actions that are driven by our bitterness. As we let go of grudges, we'll no longer define our lives by how we've been hurt, and we may even find compassion and understanding.

What happens if I can't forgive someone?

Forgiveness can be very challenging. It may be particularly hard to forgive someone who doesn't admit wrong or doesn't speak of their sorrow. Keep in mind that the key benefits of forgiveness are for you. If you find yourself stuck, it may be helpful to take some time to talk with a person you've found to be wise and compassionate, such as a spiritual leader, a mental health provider or an unbiased family member or friend.

It may also be helpful to reflect on times you've hurt others and on those who have forgiven you. As you recall how you felt, it may help you to understand the position of the person who hurt you. It can also be beneficial to pray, use guided meditation or journal. In any case, if the intention to forgive is present, forgiveness will come in its time.

My Dear Friends, I found this article i thought of Sharing it with you and Here's My Thoughts on this : Of Course We All Know that this is one of the Important Lessons in Life We Mankind need not just to remember but also needed to be Applied . I know it's not easy believe me, But not doing anything about it is TOXIC ! I know it's hard to Forgive Someone who hurt Us ; It's much easier to Hold on to our hearts than to let them go. The Memory of what they did and the damage we've Suffered make it very difficult to forgive them.

This is why we need God's help, because only He can give us the strength we need to overcome our hurts and truly learn to forgive. And we need to do this, because otherwise we'll carry those hurts around with us the rest of our lives -- and they will become like a massive, crushing burden. Long after the event has passed that caused our hurt, the anger and resentment and depression will still be with us -- and (as I often say) they'll act like a poison in our minds and souls. (Physically and Spiritually)

How can you avoid this? Begin by turning to God, admitting to Him that you know you can't do this on your own. Then ask Christ to come into your life and fill you with His love. We have treated God far worse than anyone has ever treated us -- and yet He still loves us, and His Son was willing to die for us. The Bible says, "This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us" (1 John 3:16).

God hates the sin -- but He still loves the sinner. The Bible says, "Forgive whatever grievances you may have against one another. Forgive as the Lord forgave you" (Colossians 3:13).

I HOPE IT HELPS!!!- Ann

"LANDSLIDE "....A Process of CHANGE

I took my love and I took it down
Climbed a mountain and turned around
And I saw my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Till the landslide brought it down

Oh, mirror in the sky - What is love?
Can the child within my heart rise above?
Can I sail through the changin' ocean tides?
Can I handle the seasons of my life?
I don't know, I don't know

Well, I've been afraid of changin'
Because I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder, even children get older
And I'm getting older, too.
So, take my love, take it down
Climb a mountain and turn around
And if you see my reflection in the snow-covered hills
Well, the landslide will bring it down
The landslide will bring it down "

Wow ...What an Amazing song, who would ever forget This is One of the Greatest Hits in the early 70's that really hits home! For the Youngsters, you probably heard a different versions of this song , Sung by Smashing Pumpkins it was actually played in the controversial movie, "Broke back Mountain" and of course, the Dixie Chicks.

Steve Nicks version by far is the best...It was written in 1973, (It's about a father-daughter relationship.) "I realized then that everything could tumble, and when you're in Colorado, and you're surrounded by these incredible mountains, you think avalanche. It meant the whole world could tumble around us and the landslide would bring you down. And a landslide in the snow is like, deadly. And when you're in that kind of a snow-covered, surrounding place, you don't just go out and yell, because the whole mountain could come down on you." ~Stevie Nicks, In the Studio with Red Beard, May 1992

For So many , this song has been interpreted in so many ways that can apply to so many different things - broken friendships, romantic relationships, giving up, trying hard , being independent, having your own individuality and keep achieving your dreams.

First and Foremost, I've chosen this particular song to start off My New Year ...My New Life, A New Beginning- Simply because this song has touched me deeply. This is the most perfect lyrics that symbolizes the Process of CHANGE. The "Landslide" symbolizes of the gradual effects of time. Time changes things. It mollifies the effects of Memories, Experiences and Decisions...It paves the way for the New Road of Life.

My Own Interpretation of this song based on my life ,is about trying to figure out Finding Myself , Growing up, Letting go, and becoming My own Person. As a Child, I looked up to my Parents -I built My childhood Life around them ,they have all these dreams and hopes for Me and its like they can do no wrong. But there comes a time in everyone life where I realized that my parents aren't always going to be making every decisions for me, and I have to make My own. But as time goes by, I grew up, and I changed, and I may not turned out exactly the way my parents wanted me to be but at the same time I don't want to disappoint them (gee,I gave them 5 grand big babies) and I have to do what is right for Me.

As I get Older ,It's about Changes & Being Independent. You know, Going out on your own for once.Taking care of yourself even though it might be hard. But it's a 'mountain' that you will be able to climb. But also Growing up and letting go of safe familiar things. I spent so many years of my life being afraid to change and live my own as I based my life on my "Significant others" (EX'S Now!) I was unsure if i can make it and I was leaving someone behind in a way and telling them if they remember any of the bad times involving them that sooner or later that thought will pass.


It is also about the pain of being in a bad relationship where I have lost I'm identity and I feel scared to change myself because to do that would be to end of the relationship and loose the part of me that was so connected to the other person. (i've been afraid of changing, because i've built my life around you) but also about gaining the strength to change and do what I have to do to be happy (time makes you bolder, even children get older, i'm getting older too) and the landslide is the person who carries the connection, I tried to climb the mountain to build myself into the person I want to be, as the landslide brings me down!
The landslide is the ongoing turmoil of existence of being falling apart . There are times i asked myself a question ,If I be able to handle the changing of the seasons of my Life?

The Key is: Sometimes you have to give up things that don't matter and committing to things that do. It's about getting the strength to leave something that doesn't fit you so well anymore. Maybe everybody needs a landslide in their life for a fresh start,huh?

At the Present moment, I could imagine at this age I survived a lot in life and is getting so concern of the uncertain things that is to come. Alone and Reflecting where to turn to next . Isn't it sad to realized that I have placed my hopes on in dependable things/persons most of my life. What will I do? What will you do? Darn, Old age can really bring you into a lot of thinking, about how your life unfolded -yada,yada,yada... But to me it only reminds me and makes me realized how much I really needed God more in my life...and that is the Bottomline!

"Life is too short to wake up with regrets. So love the people who treat you right. Forget about the one's who don't. Believe everything happens for a reason. If you get a second chance, grab it with both hands. If it changes your life, let it. Nobody said life would be easy, they just promised it would be worth it." ANN

IS SHE/HE YOUR "SOULMATE"?...THEN, EVALUATE!

Here is what was written:
When we are born we begin a journey. Along the way on this long winding path we eventually end up seeking many things. One of which is love. In the beginning, it is from our Mother & Father, then our family, community and so on. Eventually, assuming everything goes right, we begin to find we have a void within us, which other forms of love can't seem to fill. We have all known loneliness, a dark emptiness within our soul which seems to stretch for an eternity. We feel like we are apart of nothing, just drifting aimlessly upon the sea of humanity with no destination, nor land in sight. At times despair is like our wet clothing as we shiver cold and alone in the darkness. To distract ourselves we dream of "The One" and how they will lift our spirits and take away the emptiness, this absence of life. For some, eventually someone comes along and brings light to this darkness. But as humans, sometimes we are by this time so starved to be "touched" that we unknowing make compromises which, if we were rational we would not make. Thus the saying. "Blinded by Love ". Because, of these compromises, we may never find our true predestined love. Many of you now, are not in a "Soulmate" relationship. The truth is you got tired of waiting and you settled for the best "offer" at the time. This was your choice, and now is your Karma. But in your heart, in your soul, you know if someone is your Soulmate, for it goes beyond just love. It is a form of joining. When you meet your, (SM) this person will have an instantaneous effect on you. A Soulmate is someone who makes your knees go weak and you want to catch your breath. With but a single glance they lesson your burden and but a smile, warms your heart. You will feel a sense of connection ( affinity ) with this person. They will touch you so deeply on so many levels, you will want to share your inner most secrets. For the first time in your life someone will make you feel like almost like a god. Once you have met your (SM) for better or sometimes worse, your life will never be the same. One of the things which makes this experience unique is the sense of a meaningful spiritual experience. You both feel like this is to be and that you've been together before in a past incarnation. Normally for some, it is several months, weeks or days before physical intimacy (sex) occurs. But when you meet your (SM) something happens, the pull or drive to become physically intimate overwhelms many, and one finds it happening basically in the initial meeting. There's a sense of safety with this person. You knowingly let go of your defenses as an empathic like bond is formed. Unlike other relationships, in the past, there will be no game playing or hidden agendas which plagued you in the past. Sometimes the best way to find something, is by not looking for it. With this in mind, you probably will meet your Soulmate (SM) when you're not looking. Since life revels in making things difficult, you'll probably meet them in the morning when your on the grave yard shift. For many it will be after a bad relationship or several bad relationships. If you're lucky you won't have to wait until your 50 to meet your (SM). But if you do. well at least you'll appreciate it's significance more, than someone in there twenties. You have had the benefit of experience, the perspective of age and the knowledge, such love is once in a life time. The point here is "Serendipity", so forget about taking that "Singles" bus tour to the Circus. Sure you'll meet a lot of nice people and perhaps you really should get out, but just be prepared to ..Well, meet some real clowns. The universe is a funny place, don't be surprised if your Soulmate is older or younger. Soulmate's don't care about age. How much older or younger ? From my observations, expect years like 7 to 20. In a true (SM) relationship it won't matter, if anything it will make you stronger. Life is not neat, nor has it ever been. So why should it start now ? There is something about the Passion you share with an (SM). It goes beyond just " body parts". For a moment in time you two are the only ones who exist in the universe. Hearts beating in rhythm as your souls have intertwined themselves becoming one. Your personal energies meld and you feel the flame of creation move through you like a wave of the ocean on a hot summers day. Soon you begin to lose track, of where you begin and your partner ends. From within the depths of your raw passionate union, your (SM) will know how and where to touch you. It will be different, intense and more gratifying than lovers of your past. They will look into your eyes and you will feel your soul open wide. For some people, there is the "Rush". All the love, all the lust, all the need will surge forth from your soul like captives from a prison. At this moment you will know what it means to get lost within someone's eyes. You will experience a touch you have never felt before and your lust will rise to new levels. Often, in the case of true Soulmates, you can get so carried away you can actually hurt yourself. But in the end as you lay there, as the warm afterglow begins to fade, you will realize what just happened was not sex. "Sex, simply doesn't feel this good." To put it simply, your (SM) will be able to make love to you in ways no one else will be able to match. It is within our nature as human being to mess things up. The very thing which makes Soulmate love so special, is the one thing which can bring it down. The simple fact is, the unparalelled love & passion is terrifying to many people. There are many people in this world who in relationships maintain an extreme amount of emotional control. They take pride in the fact that their partner is madly in love with them. By being able to "wrap them around their finger" they feel safer. Thus, all their relationships become based on this pattern. Then one day their (SM) comes along and wham!. Quickly they discover the control over their heart and the relationship is gone. Now they must relate on a level playing field, and for many, they run. It is like having your tender soul ripped from your body. You feel lost, abandoned and betrayed. There is a sense of panic which permeates your very being and personal existence. You find yourself saying, "never again". You did something you had never done before, you willingly let another in....all the way. For those of you who are runners let me tell you what you already know. It doesn't work. You can move to the other side of the planet, marry someone else and fill up your spare time with some cause. But the simple truth is, your (SM) will be there in your soul. No matter how hard you try, no matter how busy you make yourself, everyday they will enter you thoughts. So then many try and screw them out. But that doesn't work either, for it becomes just sex and as you lay there afterwards you will feel empty and cheated. A good measure of this is a simple test. After you have just made love to the person who you are using as a safe substitute, do you find yourself wanting to "get away" from them? A kind of "Okay, I got off..now get away from me feeling"? This is assuming that you can still get off. In some cases your orgasms are just barely, if you're lucky. When you were with your (SM), didn't you feel the need to remain close, to pull each other tightly and melt into each other? That's the difference....and one which is very hard to hide from yourself. If you run, then you've made the conscious choice to doom yourself and the other person to be haunted for the rest of your life. Sure, you may eventually fall in love with someone who fits your preconceived image or expectation (cute, rich or successful) of what your partner should be. But as time moves on...you never forget, you always wonder and then you eventually regret. I have a saying: The Soulmate relationship is worth putting up a fight, but there comes a time when you have done all that you can do..and you can do no more. At some point, the one who runs has to choose to stop and come to their senses. Life is sadly cruel, just as it is grand. Short of burying your child, losing your Soulmate is indescribable anguish. Eventually, after the shock, the depression comes, then the anger and then you just want it all to end. You wish you could just stop feeling...but you can't. And no matter how much you drink, smoke or eat, you can't make the pain go away. Yes, regular love hurts too..and badly. But when you lose your (SM), no matter how enlightened, wise or talented, in both will and spirit you are...it is devastating. Many of us sadly, fail to recover and we truly never "Love" again. Those who are really weak, try to kill themselves. Be it with a car speeding on a wet winding road after drinking, or "J" walking on 42nd street, to just taking one too many pills. The end result is the same if we succeed, suicide is suicide whether you leave a note or not. In the end, we don't even want to see the person, because that just tares open the wound over and over. Right or wrong, that's just the way it is. Eventually, you go on with your life and you stop hating them...because like you...they will never forget either. Every now and then life gives us a happy ending. Sometimes, after trying to get their (SM) out of their minds, the "runner" comes to realize what they had lost. A few are wise enough to do whatever it takes to correct the situation and get back into their Soulmates arms. Hopefully, not enough time has gone by so that the situation is salvagable. But oftentimes it's not. All I can say is TRY. With Soulmates there is NO pride, and there CAN be forgiveness. We are destined to meet our Soulmate, what you do after that is "your" choice. We are born into this world alone and we begin our journey. Few are lucky we find the right partner, "The ONE" along the way. With this person we grow, learn and experience the wonders of human existence. They become part of us, as we become part of them. Eventually, our journey must end as we were born to die, alone. But in between these two points we hopefully have learned, experienced and gained some wisdom with the chance to pass it on. As I walk my chosen path I say to those of you who shall follow me, this is but one part of the road which lay ahead of you. Author Unknown My Friends, In my lifetime, I found two Soulmates. I know the joys, the exquisite highs and the sense of oneness, completion and peace. Yet as we turn the coin on the other side, I also know the ongoing torment of losing one. I hope you never have to find out how it feels....to lose part of oneself. But if you do, know this: "You will survive. Your life will never be the same, but given enough time you will survive" At such a moment, you are not able to see that way. Once you do survive, the choices, good or bad, are your responsibility...and life will be what YOU make of it. Good Luck , For those of you who have found your Soulmates , Hold on to it -Make the BEST of it , Never let it go and Be Thankful for God's Precious Gift. And for those who are still waiting... Don't worry , There's HOPE - After all, " We all have A Special Place/ Special Someone, Under the Sun". Have FAITH!!!! I hope it helps.

LET'S ASK GOD TO WASH OUR HEARTS

***CAR WASH***
Washing a car is pretty much the same as washing your Heart

First, the car must be still so that it can be washed. The Heart too must be
SILENT, so that it can be LISTEN (notice the same letters involved?).
God cannot Speak to a noisy heart.

Second, the car like the heat must be OBEDIENT and SUBMISSIVE.
God cannot speak to a heart that denies ,rationalizes, or postpones.

Third, the car like the heart must be OPEN so that all the Deepest corners and Chambers can be reached and Cleaned. In the same way, God cannot
clean and heal a heart that is closed tight.

*** A MOMENT WITH THE LORD***
" Lord, Only You know and Only You can cleanse my Heart of it's dirt and Impurities. Wash my Heart and claim me once more as your own, Amen."

*** A MOMENT WITH THE WORD***
" ...Set your Heart on seeking GOD." ( 2 Chron.19:3)

MAY THE GOOD LORD BLESSES YOU ALL !!!

Ann
( I have formed a New group called " THE FAITH LOVERS" - please visit www.delivermyprayer.org this is a great website where you can request a prayer and you can send it to St.Peters Basilica in Vatican .Please join me and we can explore Life Experiences having a Strong Faith in God ,and maybe we can all learn from it or help others who are lost and needing God back to their Lives)

I AM THE "ALPHA" AND THE "OMEGA"

This Coming New Year 2009 my mission is to lifting your life from where you may find yourself to all you can be. You are not here to live a life of lack. No!
You are here to live your life of plenty. Plenty of love and plenty of everything else that you can conceive.
The place you find yourself today is only temporary for there is a way to move beyond where you are. Out of your greatest despair can come your greatest gifts and miracles.

Many live their lives in quiet desperations, waiting and hoping something will come about to bring a change within our circumstances. What many don't know, is that there is a recipe for living our lives in magnificent ways.

You can have the love of your life. You too can have the money. You can have all your dreams fulfilled. Yes, you can live a rich rewarding life without the struggles, shame and pain.

Questions relating to God that are also most frequently asked: How to walk a fulfilling path? How to begin to having and feeling a direct connection with God? What action must I take to experience my Oneness with Him?

Believe me, when I tell you this that the time to know Him -- is now. Don't wait a moment longer to embrace your life to the fullest! Don't wait a moment longer to understand the core truth to your life! It begins with having that direction connection with God. I know, you may well be asking yourselves at this very moment, "How...?" "How can I have direct connection with Him?"

God is saying to us, "Get close to Me! Get close to Me! Do whatever you can. Do what you have to. Do what it takes.

"I AM."

I Am the wind which rustles your hair. I Am the sun which warms your body. I Am the rain which dances on your face. I Am the smell of flowers in the air, and I Am the flowers which send their fragrance upward. I Am the air which carries the fragrance.

I Am the beginning of your first thought. I Am the end of your last. I Am the idea which sparkled your most brilliant moment. I Am the glory of its fulfillment. I Am feeling which fueled the most loving thing you ever did. I Am the part of you which yearns for that feeling again and again.

It should also be noted that Jesus can help us to redeem broken relationships, and to make the very best of bad situations. He can bring hope where we see only despair, and healing where we see only disease and un-health.

Is Jesus the Alpha and Omega in your life? Have you discovered your identity and your relationships in Him? To Him who loves us and freed us from our sins by his blood, and made us to be a kingdom of serving his God and Father, to Him be glory, forever and ever. Amen

GOD BLESS YOU ALL!
Ann
HOPE.....LOVE.....FAITH , are the 3 Important Virtues.