This is one good thing to Remember

Your Soul Wants You to Know - When you hold back and repress what you feel, your body and spirit become drained, when you try to please everyone, and deny yourself, your life force wanes. If you try to meet everyone's expectations, but forget to honor your own needs, your energy field becomes dull. Allowing your emotions and needs the freedom to be spontaneously expressed, however, causes waves of energy to expand inside of you. Running on your own resources, it's easy to become drained, however, letting the divine light of the Creator flow though you easily replenishes your Soul.

Affirmation - "Healing energy and immense vitality flow though me easily and effortesly."


Wow that was one of the best night i've ever had last night during my Yoga Class. I actually ended up doing the Kundalini which focus on alot of meditations. I felt i was on top of the world. There was a healing and the gong session that they've added since it was my first time . Everyone was very friendly and fun to talk with.
I wasn't expecting it as a very relaxing , releasing alot of tensions.
I can't wait to go back there tonight again perhaps getting to know more some people in there.

I hope you guys enjoy your weekend. I might be out for the holidays if you want to keep in touch and know more of my escapades just hit me up on my facebook.

BE BLESSED... BE HAPPY.. BE SMART AND BE BEAUTIFUL.


Namaste,
Ann

My Daily Love Tarot Card for Thursday, November 18

"The Eight of Pentacles card suggests that you might feel ready to take things to the next level, but you need to fin...d your groove or be prepared to put your all into whatever material, financial, sexual or other labor of love you are working on. Send love notes, stick with what or who you know and take a hands-on approach to self-expression. Prepare to put your time and focus into streamlining the final details of this matter. Add your own personal touches, for it may be part of a lasting mark. Line up your options, for your creations could be put out there. Even in a buyer's market, you can prove yourself to be a pearl beyond price."


Another Beautiful day in Southern CA. Tonight i will start my Hatha Yoga Class that was recommended to me and i was invited by a great friend. It's been awhile since the last time I've done my yoga with Master Yoga Steve Ross Inhale and it's time to get myself together again for the sake of Me and my kids. Being healthy in mind, body in and spirit is one of my goals. I'm hoping to meet and bring more positive people in my life. Namaste.

My friend email me this after sharing to here my Love daily Tarot...

Ohh Ann , God! Good message you got. Glad you pay attention to them but now think before you act. Nothing about these things are weird Sweetheart. We attract and create exactly what we need, want, and desire. Its just that sometimes we need to give... ourselves a little time to let our soul assimilate as it expands. Everything in this world is an astral projection of our non-physical existence. However, in this physical reality we have a great deal of power to impact or hurt....

We all desire expansion..., the feelings of Obsession predicate this desire. Your soulmates and twin flames predicate Obsession. But again, we all desire expansion you just need to stop the monkey mind to make this desire a reality in your life. Your partner, soulmate, or twin flame needs to feel that you know who you are or you won't get far. You will only be stuck and that won't be anyone's fault, just your own. Whether you are in a realtionship, fighitng to heal and understand a recovering relationship, you have to understand there is no one to blame for your own actions but yourself. I hope this makes sense folks. I care enough to say, you desire more for and of your own wellbeing.

Thank you for sharing. Take this day all in, breathe, grow, and always love and Light. Give my kisses to the kids.

Love and Light,
Sandy


I am feeling good again and want to focus on what's important for me and my kids. So let's do " downward dog" People, Yayah!!

BE BLESSED, BE SMART AND BE BEAUTIFUL.

Love and Light,
Ann


AMEN!!! GOD YOU ARE SOO GOOD!!! YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW TO LIFT ME UP!!!

On this day, God wants you to know that your task is not to seek for love, but to seek and melt all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it. God loves you with the very air you breathe, the very light that touches your skin, the very ground that supports you. Love is everywhere, -... melt your barriers, and you will have love in abundance.

Abandonment = SELFISH LOVE

In our life, there are people that we care and love, but they are there only with you and not for you. With you only when things are good but when circumstances arises they are not there for you.

Let them go and love them in a distance! You can only give so much but sometimes those people are too blind enough not to see it or no matter what you do is never good enough for them.


We cannot let anyone keep coming in and out of ourlives and our children lives then when the going gets tough - they run like there's a tornado. No calls, No shows .. nothing!

It's very hurtful. It is very wrong and very selfish of that person.

We must let it go , it will hurt trememdously but we will be healed as long as we continue to realized that we love ourself and our children to just walk away and never again let someone who thinks they are entitled too to treat someone who is willing to give their life for them but they abandoned you whenever they feel like it. Once we healed there'll be someone who is waiting for us out there who can give exactly or even more what we can offer them, I can guarantee you!


I believed that people like that Don't even TRUST their ownself that is why they don't even know how to trust others so they run away.

RUN FOREST... RUN!!!


Ohh well, I'm Hoping to start a job here soon , had some interviews today . I have one that i feel very very confident and the head hancho seems really really nice .. so let's wait and see. Soon I'll be able to mingle more with positive people.

Be Blessed, Be Beautiful and Be Smart.

Love and Light,
Ann

My Own Pursuit of Happiness ....

Somewhere between heartaches and waiting comes another chance to be found by someone who can show you that you don't deserve to be just an option but a choice.


Another Beautiful day ! Have a good one to all!


Sending you all a lot of Love and Light,
Ann

This is one good thing to Remember

CONFUCIUS SAY:
PERSON WITH CHIP ON SHOULDER DUMP ON OTHERS...

and My friend response to this last night ....

Confucius say . . . man who stands on toilet is high on POT!

O'BOY IS THAT THE TRUTH...HAVE A GOOD DAY!!!

Love and Light,
Ann

Amazing!

"All good men are happy when they choose to be their own authors. Those who choose to have others edit their pathways, must live on the edge of another man's sword."


We often let friends, family, even strangers, who are only looking at things logically, or on the earthly way give us advice, we follow it. Each of us have a wonderful intuitiveness of our own that tells us what we need to know, what we are desiring, is that absolute great way to live. This will make us happy if we chose our path, follow it, wait for it to happen.
Now we don't have to be impatient, shy or worry anymore about the situations we are in. NOW is the time when we can listen to the right messages, follow these messages, and start building toward our future. We have the inner voices to guide us, to prepare our hearts for what we want, we need. We can listen to good spiritual advice, let spirit lead us. Today starts the new day. Today we can see the miracles that will come no matter what outsiders tell us , no matter what others say , we will sail along our path, without impatience, without shyness,without worry we are wrong, but to achieving our dreams.

May You all have a wonderful weekend.... another Endless rain in Southern California, but it's all good - I still love the weather.

Sending you all alot of Love and Light ,
Ann

Something to Ponder....

"Take control of your destiny. Believe in yourself. Ignore those who try to discourage you. Avoid negative sources, people, places, things and habits. Don't give up and don't give in."


We are set on a path.
we are destined to certain things, people, no matter how hard we try, our path goes back to lead us to being who, what and where we are suppose to be .
We want to fight it.
We say that we are NOT, no we are NEVER, yet still when we are destined for this path, this is right back where we want to go. recently someone i was talking to told me, "I never say never anymore, because as sure as I do, I do what I said I would NEVER Do! " Goodness. We really mean it . Yet, we must have thoughts in our head, or we wouldn't even be thinking, worrying about it. Especially when love is involved. We love who we love. Yes, maybe they aren't perfect BY ANY MEANS.

If we really think about it, what is our part in it as well.

The key to success, the key to happiness, is to keep believing, keep focusing, to not give up and not give in!

I AM IN CONTROL OF MY DESTINY... MY VERY OWN SELF...WHEN I HEAR NEGATIVITY , I JUST IGNORE IT FROM NOW ON , IT'S NOT WORTH MY TIME ANYMORE. WHEN PROBLEMS ARISES - I ALREADY HAVE 5 DIFFERENT PLANS IN MY HEAD ON WHAT TO DO NEXT ,STEP BY STEP THAT I NEEDED TO DO. AND IN THE END OF THE DAY, I GO TO CHURCH , LIGHT A WHITE CANDLE IN THE ALTAR THEN DO MY LIQUID PRAYERS. NO ONE CAN BRING ME DOWN , IT HAS BEEN PROVEN FOR SO MANY YEARS...WHEN THE DEVIL TRIES TO STRIKE ON ME , I HAVE MY ARCHANGELS WHO SHIELDS ME AND PROTECT ME AT ALL TIMES.
I AM MORE FOCUS ON WHAT I REALLY WANT THAT IS GOOD FOR MYSELF AND FOR MY CHILDREN.

It's been a very busy week still trying to settle in ....Wishing you all the best!

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

Thought of the day

A FAMILY is not a name for a group of people, but the quality of relationships between them.
Relationships grounded in mutual love, trust, caring and forgiveness.
In all the ups and all the downs of life. Look closely,
-who is really your family, and who in truth are just strangers in for the ride?


I am very Thankful for my family and Blessed to have them.

Sending you all alot of love and light,
Ann

Fears

"Life is not a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to skid in broadside, thoroughly used up, totally worn out, and loudly proclaiming 'WOW What a Ride!'"

Then we are overly cautious, fears can prevent us from experiencing life as we are meant to be. This anxieties can manifest and prevent us from meeting people, getting the right job or simply trying new things.

The best way to identify and to understand what they are is to ask questions. 'What am I afraid off? Why am I afraid off? And what can I do to change this" The first step in healing is no admit that there are issues that need to be dealt with. Be honest about it, the truth has a wonderful way of setting one's mind free.
I refuse to be a prisoner of my fears....

So, come on, what are you afraid off? Grab the life by the horns, and let's go for a ride...

Have a Wonderful weekend!!

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann


***FYI***
VENUS IN RETROGRADE
With Venus, the planet of love, officially went retrograde in the sign of her detriment. In other words, while Venus in Scorpio may relate to sex and intensity, the sign does not favor the planet that rules love. The planets are lining up to weed the negative relationships out of your life and enable you to make room for something more positive. Reality will be the key word, and it is not always what we want to see. The good relationships will become stronger during this period, and it is a time to work through issues and create more balance.

Karma and Fate in Relationships

In a general sense when Venus retrogrades love energy becomes more intense and the drama can begin. It is a period when seemingly fated events occur, sometimes appearing to be beyond the control of the parties involved. Relationships can slow down or end. Sometimes those from our past can reappear. It is a time of reviewing and re-accessing your love life. Changes occur, and people can switch their affections and partners. The karma (karma=the universal will, what will ultimately be) of the relationship will play out during this period. Unresolved issues come to the forefront to be resolved one way or another

Your Behavior (Awesome Blog)

Relationship tip of the Day: Listen with your Heart
Oftentimes due to stubborness, we are unwilling or even unable to "see"
or "hear" ourselves in the same manner that perhaps our partner does.
When this happens, we are blind to the issues, because we tend to avoid
looking at the real problem in our relationship which is actually Our own behavior
or unwillingness to "see" & or yield to our partner's feelings, or sensitivity regarding
our actions, words or deeds, which is in fact, the real issue.

Because the real issue is about something we did, said, or how we behaved in an offensive, or defensive manner---that we don't want to or just cannot accept is even possible, we spin, or boomerang back to our partner, inadvertently, making what is actually, our issue, all about them and their sensitivity to our behavior.

When hurt feelings, is the issue within the framework of our relationship, and the root cause is about own behavior----making it about our partner or their inability to accept our actions, words, or deeds, does not make things better. You being unwilling to see or accept your partner's point --- because you are truly unable to 'see' yourself, or HEAR with your Ears or HEART, humbly, your partner's pleas, is damaging
in and of itself.

These sensitive times are truly one of those tough and touchy times
for all of us to come to terms with, that can escalate into a major couple
war if not handled or addressed in the right & most wise way. Take a long
look at yourself, accept responsibility & be accountable for your actions, words,
or deeds, and the fact that perhaps even if unimaginable to you, that if your partner's
perception is that YOU DID---hurt their feelings in some way----even if UN-intentionally ---then stop, and with a gentle calm spirit, open up your heart, and listen to the person whom you love with all your heart. Remember that when we love someone ---forgiveness is key.

When your partner tells you that your actions, words, or deeds have created hurt feelings, in some way, regardless, it's important that you open up and 'choose' to listen with your HEART, rather than your ears. It's a difficult thing to accept, especially when unintentional on our part. And we don't want to accept the fact that 'that' was even a real possibility, because in our mind, we love that person so much, that to us it seems utterly a real impossibility to ever do such a thing, or hurt them in the manner they are suggesting.

Not a single one of us is perfect. When you are open to the fact that because you are human, it is likely that you have the ability to behave in a way that can be offensive or defensive, toward others, at times, especially our partners. And for one reason, we are 'human', and it's human to be selfish, self-centered, filled with pride, unyielding, and uncompromising, at times, even if we 'are unable' to see that side of our nature, ourselves.

" Your Mind has the POWER to CHANGE Your LIFE"

Often times we chose to rather sit in our comfort zone eventhough it is not serving as any good anymore. Because of our FEAR of the unknown we intend to just be content and lived unhappily. For me, I'd always wanted to try my best and set aside my fear-I am love challenges- I'm kinda like a junkie to that! But of course, I do pray alot and of course ask God for guidance.

Sometimes all we have to do is get out of the comfort zone - and see what's out there - you'll never know there's more exciting life awaits for you out there.

Be true to yourself and live life from the heart. You will never fail if you are true to who you are and you live your faith, whatever that faith may be.

I love every minute being back here in CA- I am very thankful that GOD has been so good to me and my family.

BE POSITIVE ....BE STRONG...AND HAVE FAITH.

Sending you all alot of love and light,
Ann

My friend emailed me this about my New Beginnings in CA

Ann, LIfe will move us forward. Step by step. Piece by piece it unfolds.

One of the safest ways is to trust in our Heavenly Father, guiding us and leading us. That no matter what outer appearances may be to know that by diving into our hearts with genuine prayer our lives can be changed.

Allow harmony and peace to flow in your life and a mate of equal measure will be drawn to you.

No need to harbor vengence, or hatred, God has asked of us that he be the one to mete out such judgments.

He asked for us to find our peace, our joy, and to love all. Remain innocent like little children.

This is such an exciting time in your life. Expect good fruit to fall from the trees all around you.

Be cautious for the first 3 months. Allow your energy to settle in California first. Then your vibration will be in alignment with more attractive choices for long term happiness.

Leave the past in TX, and move foward into this exciting new chapter of your life.

Many blessings,
Cali Rose


Thank you so much!! Very Inspiring! You have always been there for me... I just remembered the other day reading my notes of what you told me from last summer when i was planning to move to CA that to be careful on things i write in my blog. Because someone will do their best effort to " ditch" me because someone will be very jealous and insecure. That person might not even help me move to CA... hahah!
I thought it was funny. So my friends since i have your emails on my lists - i will be putting my blog in private from now on - since i am planning to blog every single of the day in CA...with no restrictions!!!

Thank you my dear friends and new friends...I can't wait for the new chapter of my life. This will be a good one.

Sending you all alot of love and light,
Ann

"You can give without loving, but you can never love without giving."

Granted, God created our brains, giving us the capacity to learn & to understand 'His nature' (the nature of God) by virtue of indulging in 'His Word' (the Bible). Thank God for this gift of understanding when we choose to 'seek Him'. God is Love, & so we tend to believe that if we can 'understand the nature of God' & accept His unconditional love, without thinking about it, then of course, we should also be able to 'logically' comprehend eros or romantic love by just accepting it & not thinking about it? Or applying logic... true? Of course that makes total sense? Again, "Logical, right"? If Only!


Sure, we can talk about it, think about it, rationalize it, justify it all INTELLECTUALLY, but all that intellectualizing, does not change our heart when we 'know in our heart' that we are sharing 'our heart' with someone. And that someone is 'The One'...the one whom we only wish we could detach from...at the same time we fight with desiring to be attached to them so much that we are in sheer misery! We gave that special someone our heart & s/he has it, & there is nothing but 'time' & intellectual/physical detachment that will allow us to move on. We all know what physical detachment is, of course. 'Physical detachment means physical distance'---not seeing that person or interacting with that person at all. But what is intellectual detachment. Intellectual detachment is actually redirecting our focus, transferring these emotions & feelings onto something or someone else. We can talk about how to go about doing that, and it does take time, but both concepts must be employed in order to work effectively.

When our heart is attached to, or broken by someone whom we believe we have given 'it' to. . . that person figuratively has our heart in their hands. It is because we've given our heart to them with abandon, we have no control over it... thinking about it only makes the attachment grow, giving the holder power to control. Try telling that 'to your brain'. Ha! All the thinking about it 'won't change' it. It is what it is and when ya know, you know, 'right'? Think "Duality'... you gave your heart away to someone, purposely or not, it happened. Therefore, duality ---is also what will work in detaching it. By redirecting your thoughts to someone or something else will enable your heart to 'move from one to another' & is the process for detachment. But let's look at whom we are going to redirect our focus on. I don't suggest another person. Not at first. Although psychology will disagree with me on this (what is called: rebound relationships) because, again, psychology deals with the intellect. I am speaking something much stronger than mere intellect. Turn to & tune into your spiritual nature. Turn to 'GOD', prior to moving to another person. Let GOD be your intercessor. When you're suffering a broken heart.

We can ask ourselves 'why' we love whom we love, but there is no logical reason why or what for or when it all happened, it just did. God does have a plan in us giving our hearts to someone who inadvertently winds up breaking it in the process. This is where 'FAITH' must be applied. Love by 'FAITH', because there is no logic to love. If we could actually apply logic to love, then we could walk away easily from what 'we call is love' that has our heart in a strong hold that we just cannot intellectually understand. That is all part of God's plan, too...yes, I promise you. Put "GOD" first, then suddenly, you'll feel better & know you're going to survive this broken heart you're sporting. I'm here with you, I know what you're going through.
God + Time + Patience = Healing = Love.


What a Beautiful Sunday!!
LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST , FALL IN LOVE AND DON'T BE AFRAID TO GET HURT ...AFTER ALL ,LOVE AND PAIN ALWAYS COMES TOGETHER, IT'S PART OF IT JUST BE STRONG.

Sending you Love and Light,
Ann

10% What Happens To You and 90% How You Respond To It ( A Must Read)

Charles R. Swindoll stated that Life is 10% what happens to you and 90% how you respond to it. If life is only 10% of what happens to us we should feel extremely empowered at the notion that we have so much control over our lives. Everyone at one time or another has felt at the mercy of life, chance, and circumstances but you always have a choice in how you chose to respond to them.


There are some really evil things that happen in our world and knowing how to respond to them will make a difference on how we chose to be in our lives. Everything starts with our perspective on a situation. If how we respond to a situation is 90% of what controls our lives it’s important we have a good solid faith to live by.

A person with a negative attitude or the assumption that only bad things happen to them or they are destined to fail and be dumped on is surely not going to succeed in making their dreams come true. But a person who has a strong faith system installed will always have something to give them hope that everything happens for a reason and that evil is not in a dominating force in our lives.

Faith is a word that means one thing but is based on many different belief systems. Faith means you know what you believe deepest in your heart is true. What your definition of truth is may vary. But by merely having faith in something higher than yourself you are in control of how you chose to view life instead of life choosing how you view it. Why do you want outside circumstances and events to chose how you feel and how you make your decisions. Shouldn't your heart and faith do this for you.


If you are living in a place where there is war and death all around you how do you survive? With your faith. If you are constantly being kicked while you are down what are you going to do to get back up again? Some people do not chose to get back up they are the ones who have no faith. They are the ones who let circumstance and life chose how they feel and live. But if they were to have a healthy faith system within them they would be able to get back up every time and move forward in their faith.


So what if you do not have a faith system developed and you realize your response truly is what controls your happiness in life? You then need to sit down and decide what it is you believe in. You need to find your heart and what it truly believes in. It does not have to be a symbol or a religion or even an entity. It just needs to be something that comes from your heart and that you feel at the deepest level of who you are. You can make it up but as long as you believe in it and it is true and of pure intent it will get you through the hardest of times. It will get you through those times because your response will be positive when life deals you a challenging hand. It will get you through the tough times because your response is 90% of how you respond to life and you have chosen to follow it from your heart. Your religion, your beliefs, your views on life do not matter to me nor should they matter to the person standing next to you but matters is how you chose to express them.

Be true to yourself and live life from the heart. You will never fail if you are true to who you are and you live your faith, whatever that faith may be.

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Do not try to Understand with your Mind...True Understanding comes from the Heart~ Ann

Faith...Perserverance...and Perception.

Poula Poula Malouka Yunanistan+ I love Greece!!

( I am Manifesting MYSELF in "Santorini Island " having a Time of My Life,yeah!)

Life is not easy for any of us. But what of that? We must have perseverance and above all confidence in ourselves. We must believe that we are gifted for something and that this thing must be attained.


Faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things that were not seen. You can question your faith and even have doubts but once you return back to believing in the original belief wholeheartedly it's still considered to be faith.

The individual need not focus on or trust in the unfolding of their desires because faith has nothing to do with the HOW. It is the sole belief that the event, person, or material will enter their life experience.
Thus being un-wavering is not giving up on the original belief despite of the perception of HOW.

What a Beautiful cool day !!!
I'm lovin' it, baby!

Sending you all love and Light,
Ann


Jane - Ann, YOu are always the GO GETTER in our group. Whenever you want something done- You will do it even sometimes it seems impossible. You never quit til you try first. You hate quitters and losers as well. I am happy for you my sister. Can't wait to see you !! Love you!

Un-Wavering Faith

What is un-wavering Faith? What does it have to do with having what I want, doing what I want to do, or achieving what I want to achieve? Well it has plenty!

Let me first tell you what unwavering faith isn't, so we can root out any misconceptions. It is not wishful thinking. It is not a false sence of what could be or imagination. It is not a day dreamer or a dreamer. It is not a pie in the sky mentality. These are all negitive society views we've place on people who speak of things that are currently non-exsistant because the viewer doesn't see any hint of it comming to pass.

I call unwavering faith DETERMINATION, PRESSING ON DISPITE OBSTACLES, STEAD FAST, believeing that (IT) will happen, take place, manifest, or show up. Staying stead fast to a belief, a want, a desire until it is achieved is key to getting your desires accomplished. Changing our approach to getting the ( IT ) accomplished is not the obstacle when achieving your desires. The obstacle is maintaining unwavering faith despite the obstacle(s). Unwavering faith is knowing that (IT) will manifest, or show up dispite any obstacles. Obstacles should only be viewed as a tool for growth so you can maintain the ( IT ).

Unwavering=Standing still

Faith=Believe in

IT=your desire

Standing still believe in your desires

To you as it came to me,
S sweet


Simplified, un-wavering faith is the unquestioned knowingness that everything is unfolding exactly as it should be. Trust and accept that you are where you are suppose to be.


Bravo!! - I love this blog! Yes, Just like ME .. . When it comes to my family , my children , I am always determined to do what is right and necessary at that moment. I have all the courage in me to believe that as long as i desire one thing and do it - it will eventually manifest itself.
I have a very strong will when it comes to my family. Sometimes, when i paused it will crossed my mind ...how in the hell am i gonna do this? but yet, buy the time i realized that Im almost half way through it. No one can stop me or nothing can stop me when i am determined to do what is right for my family- it's like having the " wonder woman " strenght runs through my veins. After all I am the only strong foundation they have and keeping the family together.

Thank you , Kisha.

Love,
Ann

A Lovely day in North Texas

WHEN HEAVEN WANTS TO PUNISH A PERSON, IT FIRST GIVES HIM A LITTLE FAVOR AND WHEN HEAVEN WANTS TO GIVE A PERSON A PROSPERITY, IT FIRST PLACES AN OBSTACLE IN HIS WAY


LOVE IS IN THE AIR. WHEN I STEPPED OUTSIDE THIS MORNIN' , I NOTICED THAT FINALY FALL HAS ARRIVED. IT WONT BE LONG AND THEY WILL BE WANTING TO COME HOME. ITS A NATURAL PULL.. LIKE THE MOON PULLS THE OCEAN. IT GETS COLDER AND THEY WANT TO NUZZLE UP TO US LIKE THE PUPPIES THEY TRULY ARE... EXCITING, LOVIN' TIMES AHEAD.


Sending you all alot of LOVE and LIGHT,
Ann

Ann, On this day October 1 , God wants you to know ... that you are a child of God. Remain strong in your faith, no matter how many mistakes God's children make along the way of growing up, they are still destined for Grace and eternal Joy.

Onct.1 - Daily Tarot card- The Strength card affirms that my alter ego today is the seductive beast of my Animagus, whose superpower is to master self-control to tame fears or impulses to prove of what stuff I'm made. I boldly go... but a willful heart is part of my secret identity. My infinite fortitude is seen by what I do, sacrifice or defy to stand up for what I feel is right, including admitting when I'm wrong, keeping out of it or not dignifying responses provoked by moral cowards and brutes. When resolve is tested I draw on the courage of my true character from the more savage or humble virtues of my natural instincts to maintain objective by composure. This enables me to hold my tongue against bravado, repress claws at empty threats, and not turn tail in pride against passion when it's hard or inconvenient, but to persuade through self-restraint until assimilation is complete or resistance is futile."

Missy - Awesom-o! super hot sis! luv the smile! rain and thunderstorm here in CA yesterday, t'was a bummer. Luv u nd ttyl. headin' out ..

Something to Ponder...

"The greatest evil that can befall man is that he should come to think ill of himself."


"If we don’t forgive ourselves for our mistakes, and others for the wounds they have inflicted upon us, we end up crippled with guilt. And the soul cannot grow under a blanket of guilt, because guilt is isolating, while growth is a gradual process of reconnection to ourselves, to other people, and to a larger whole."

My Own Pursuit of Happiness ....

" Into the house where joy lives, happiness will gladly come." - Japanese Proverb.


Today i recieved an Awesome message just for me on my facebook - all this messages serves as an inspirational motivations for me each day. I can't let the day pass without checking it. and Mind you , sometimes it's hard to believe but those messages are truly intuned on my present situation. GOD IS GREAT , HE IS MY ROCK , MY SAVIOUR AND HE WILL CONTINUE TO PROVIDE FOR ME AND MY CHILDREN...Amen!

Ann On this day Sept.29 GOD WANTS YOU TO KNOW... that you have to pass through a dark night of the soul. Everyone does, including you. A time comes when what you have always believed is true melts away underneath you. When you cast in doubt even the most obvious, the most simple. When it seems that dark night is a...ll around, and you are all alone. Take heart, this journey through abyss is the final barrier before your emergence into the heavenly light of a new synthesis of your being. God is waiting for you on the other side.


It is almost over been through this windy and dark road....God is truly waiting for us to come home. Moving to CALI very very soon and I strongly believed that once I get there that things will starts to fall into place as God Intent to do.

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann



Cat- At some point you will realize that you have done too much for someone, that the only next possible step to do is to stop. Leave them alone... Walk away... It’s not like you’re giving up, and it’s not like you shouldn’t try. It’s just that you have to draw the line of determination from desperation. What is truly yours... will eventually be yours, and what is not, no matter how hard you try, will never be.You going to CALI will give you alot of positive energy being around your family and friends. We are all there for you Ann - just like when we were growing up. Let go of those non sense peeps - they are not worth your time and your love. You are always the sweet girl next door type and Men is never a problem to you , they all come to you from different directions. I am a living proof of that. Love you Sis and I can't wait to make some more great unforgettable memories with you !! Be Strong just like you always are.

Expectations......

Are what cause so many issues in our friendships and relationships.....
We have many unrealistic expectations of people, most they are blissfully unaware of....

When we do not tell the other person about what we expect we are being unreasonable to expect them to read our mind and know what we want from them.
Sometimes we do not tell the other person what we want or need from them because we are afraid they will reject us or not meet them....and that can be an issue because resentment can build up and cause stress where there should be none. It was OUR own expectations that caused this not the other person not meeting them.

The real problem ONLY begins if we tell the other person what we want and or need from them and that person ignores our wants and needs. Because we have stated our needs, and we have not had them met....

Because we have made our needs clear and are expecting the other person to meet them, that is different from us expecting the other to read our minds....
But what is a reasonable expectation of another human being? Somehow the more we care the more we expect from someone and have no idea that it is ONLY the fact that we care about that person that makes us feel we deserve more from them....because IF we did not care the words a person says or does not say do not have the power to hurt us....it really IS as simple as that....

So keep your expectations realistic, state them clearly, address issues before they really become one, pick your battles, but do not turn them INTO battles, and be honest both with yourself and the other person....

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

( AWESOME IRISH BAND!!! )

When we're Young .....

LOVE THIS SONG...the meaning comes so clear to me, but yet its so hard to explain it...for me, it feels like its talking about all the things you imagined adult hood to be when you were young and all the things you hoped to be...but then you grew up and saw it wasnt like that. It just means getting back to what is important in your life and realizing what makes you happy, even if it takes time to go back years and years to get to the simplicity of things "when you were young"....

Sending You all Love and Light,
Ann




Missy- Awesome song sis! and so true... We humans are Fallible creatures, we make mistakes and poor choices and so are the people around us, forgiving not only the ones who had hurt us, but more importantly ourselves is the key to personal growth.... It's what makes our imperfection worthy. Forgiving even those who had hurt us the most. "When we were young" we're full of innocense, we grow up and we learned a lot from our own experience... And we still look back some time to the "When we were young" Days... but with full awareness and wisdom.. at times, we find ourselves thinking "Wow..without so and so pain, I wouldn't have grown up this way" And it's the meaning of life. I love you and will see you soon sis! My hats off to you by the way! You hadn't changed all these years, still the same Good hearted Ann I've known 20 years or so ago. "When we were young" ;)

RAVE, TECHNO , FREE STYLE AND TRANCE DAYS

To all my RAVE friends in Switzerland , Tokyo-Roppongi Japan, Bay Area , South Sac.... Here's ONE NIGHT IN BANGKOK !!!

I Miss our wild and wet nights... dancing all night long!!!


Muahhhh!!!

Ann

Thought of the day

" Through perseverance many people win success out of what seemed destined to be certain failure."

Happy Sunday to you all.. .Just got back from my Chiro as my everyday Theraphy.. More Packing to do but we're getting in there...Doing the count down.


Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

I LOVE THIS SONG!!!

We can't change the wind But we can adjust our sail.

Nobody knows who I really am
I never felt this empty before
And if I ever need someone to come along
Who's gonna comfort me and keep me strong

We are all rowing the boat of fate
The waves keep on comin' and we can't escape
But if we ever get lost on our way
The waves would guide you through another day

Tookude iki wo shiteru toumei ni nattamitai
Kurayami ni omoe takedo mekaku shisarete tadake
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

Nobody knows who I really am
Maybe they just don't give a damn
But if I ever need someone to come along
I know you would follow me, and keep me strong

Hito no kokoro wa utsuri yuku nukedashita kunaru
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo tsureteku

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Oh, I can see the shore
When will I... see the shore?

I want you to know who I really am
I never thought I'd feel this way towards you
And if you ever need someone to come along
I will follow you, and keep you strong

Tabi wa mada tsudzuiteku odayakana hi mo
Tsuki wa mata atarashii shuuki de fune wo terashidasu
Inori wo sasagete atarashii hi wo matsu
Azayaka ni hikaru umi sono hate made

And every time I see your face,
The oceans heave up to my heart
You make me wanna strain at the oars,
And soon I can see the shore

Unmei no fune wo kogi
Nami wa tsugi kara tsugi e to
Watashitachi wo osou kedo
Sore mo suteki na tabi ne
Dore mo suteki na tabi ne

Full Moon Sept 23rd ...Today is a great day to harvest.

On this day Sept. 23 , God wants you to know ... that when you focus on problems, you will have more problems. When you focus on possibilities, you will have more opportunities.


It is a day to complete things and bring closure to any situation .It can be a positive, healthy crop, or harvesting an issue and getting it out of your field so that you can move on to a healthier one.

This is the perfect day energetically to get that harvest in, and to then open a door to be able to move on.

When others have closed the door, allow it to remain closed and move forward with a new crop, with new ideas, goals and a new attitude.

You can harvest by finishing up a project, or a mindset.You can harvest the tangible or intangible.

Remember to not rush things. All good things take time.Patience is the lesson taught by the Universe most often as it is the most important lesson we will learn on this earth.

What can you harvest today?


Sending you all Alot of Love and Light,
Ann


The full moon on September 23rd will fall in the sign of Aries. Aries is the sign that likes to be adventurous and outgoing. It's a great time to take chances and risks to see what results you get. Gambles are highlighted here. I don't mean the gambles of money and the casino. I mean the gambles of taking chances in life. You need to explore and venture out into the world. The adventures can take you to a place or company or career field that is different and unique from what you are use to. The full moon is the first of two full moon affecting you. Saturn will oppose this full moon making you work hard to accomplish your goals. You may be investing more time and effort in order to advance. It could be a time of changes and obligations. You will find yourself investing more time and effort to get ahead. Saturn is the sign od discipline and obligations so expect to buckly down and get to work. You may feel a bit stressed, depressed or anxious at this time too. Pluto also seem to be adding more pressures and frustrations. It will square this full moon which could make you feel a bit emotional and sensitive. The full moon will affect mainly everyone who was born around the 20th through 27th of any sign and from any month. Everyone will feel the affects from this full moon but more so those born around those days.

My BEST FRIENDS... My SISTERS!!!

I am Happy to be Reconnected once again via Facebook with my Bestfriends and my sisters growing up from my highschool and college days back home in the Philippines.

After more than 20 yrs...Finally seeing each other soon in CALI.

I MISS YOU MY SISTERS!!!! WE HAD WONDERFUL MEMORIES TOGETHER THAT WILL ALWAYS STAYS IN US. WE CRIED, WE LAUGHED , WE DANCED AND SING TOGETHER.


FRIENDSHIP IS A PRICELESS GIFT
THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT OR SOLD
BUT ITS VALUE IS FAR GREATER
THAN THE MOUNTAIN MADE OF GOLD
FOR GOLD IS COLD & LIFELESS
IT CAN NEITHER SEE NOR HEAR
& IN THE TIME OF TROUBLE
IT IS POWER LESS TO CHEER--
IT HAS NO EARS TO LISTEN
NOR HEART TO UNDERSTAND
IT CANNOT BRING U CONFORT
OR REACH OUT A HELPING HAND
SO WHEN U ASK
GOD FOR A GIFT
BE THANKFUL IF HE SENDS
NOT DIAMONDS, PEARLS OR RICHES
BUT THE LOVE OF REAL TRUE FRIENDS



MISSY ( Miramar ,CA)



***They called us the " HOTTIES" in highschool - we were in our freshmen year then . I remembered alot of girls especially 11th and 12th graders HATES US- LOL!! We've both dated guys in 12th grade- that was a slapped in the face on them - hahah. As Missy kept reminding me even on this day about my killer smile that leaves guys broken hearted ( yeah right!) . And Missy's " pato " (duck) ass makes the guys drool too !! I can't wait to ride on your Harley girl crusin' all over-- hell yeah!!! Ohh gee, We are ready for our 25th Highschool Reunion next year in the Philippines. Girl , I'm not sure if this is a good thing, hahah***



SHIELA ( Rancho Cucamonga, CA)



***Ohhh Sheila....The cutie and the brain!! I'm gonna be nice here and not gonna mention any of our wild rendezvous in 11th and 12th grades. She is the Strong one , the fighter , never scared of anyone. We used to dive on things and just do it - what the heck was our motto.We dated guys belongs in the same family like my boyfriends cousin or guys from the same Catholic boys school. We found it just easy , haha no not really it just happens and we never realized it til later....double date all the time!!... And the Party continues, when i get there!! My Parents 2nd fave they always concern and worry about her wondering if she is ok***



MARY ANN ( San Jose, CA)



***My So fragile sister whom i thought alot of not so good but not so bad things. Wow I was banned to come over to her parents house for awhile -lol. But hey they managed to keep me there for days without being noticed...ohhh yeah i thought her how to be snicky! We have so much memories - she is definitely like my sister. We took her to any of my family gatherings. We're always there for each other. MY PARENTS FAVE still up to this days they always checking up on her ***

JANE ( Canada )



***Jane, the Shy one ..our memories back in College and summer time was Unforgettable. All the " Men " around Us, chased Us and Men we broke their hearts, left them hangin'...Oh well. We've both been through alot , we shared our dreams in life and comforted one another at all times.The Parties...Ok i will stop here... haha ***

CAT ( Cannot disclosed per request, lol- that's cat for you!)



***OMG!! I recieved a call from her last week wanting me to guess, it only took me 2 mins. after not speaking to her since 1986 - I freaking remember that slutty voice- lol! My mom loves her at first but later she started telling me that Cat is a bad influenced for me. Yeah !! She thought me cut classes in highschool- yeap! We watched some movies , hang out , see the boys all the time. All we did is to LAUGH , LAUGH EVEN HARDER!!! Didn't care about anyone or anything else other than We are Happy!!***

***OUR SONG FOREVER***

Are You Attracted To Dangerous Men?

An open letter to women and men frustrated with dating

Can I ask you something personal?
Be honest...

Have you ever dated the type of guy or gal that left you constantly waiting by the phone with an uneasy sick feeling in the pit of your stomach? Be honest now!

Or a guy/gal who made you feel bad about yourself, but for some reason you couldn’t leave him/her? (Of course, that same guy or gal, at times, also made you feel like you were the only person on this planet - you know, that “hot-cold” type).

And have you ever walked into a club and found yourself so attracted to one particular guy or gal, you felt like you were in a trance and literally couldn't stop making eyes with them?

If you answered yes to any of the above, it may be a sign that you’re susceptible to a certain “dangerous personality type” that psychiatrists have a SCARY sounding name for ... I'll tell you about that in a minute!

I want you to quickly read through the following list of personality traits and jot down the ones that apply to either the guy or gal you’re dating now or guys or gals you’ve typically dated in the past:

Turns out there's a BIG difference between a "normal" guy you might date and a sociopath (a sociopath actually has something wrong with their conscience - they either don't have one or it’s severely fragmented).


Sociopaths only care about fulfilling their own needs and desires - selfishness and egocentricity to the extreme. Everything and everybody else is mentally twisted around in their minds as objects to be used in fulfilling their own needs and desires.

Not surprisingly, parental failure is the #1 reason why someone develops a sociopathic personality.

Also interesting are the four distinct types of sociopaths (sound like anyone you've dated?):

1) Commons are characterized by their lack of conscience

2) Alienated are characterized by their inability to love or be loved

3) Aggressives are characterized by a consistent sadistic streak

4) Dyssocials are characterized by an inability to abide by normal rules



Here are other personality traits to watch out for:

PERSONALITY TRAITS:


1. SUPERFICIAL CHARM -- the tendency to be smooth, engaging, charming, and slick. Not in the least shy, self-conscious, or afraid to say anything. He/she never gets tongue-tied and has freed him/herself from the social conventions in taking turns in talking, for example.


2. GRANDIOSE SELF-WORTH -- a grossly inflated view of one's abilities and self-worth, self-assured, opinionated, cocky, a braggart. An arrogant guy/gal who believes he/she is a superior human being.


3. NEED FOR STIMULATION (PRONENESS TO BOREDOM) -- an excessive need for novel, thrilling, and exciting stimulation; taking chances and doing things that are risky. Often has low self-discipline in carrying tasks through to completion because he gets bored easily.



4. PATHOLOGICAL LYING -- can be moderate or high; in moderate form, and will be shrewd, crafty, cunning, sly, and clever (in extreme form, he will be deceptive, deceitful, underhanded, unscrupulous, manipulative, and dishonest).


5. CONNING AND MANIPULATIVENESS -- the use of deceit and deception to cheat, con, or defraud others for personal gain; distinguished from Item #4 in the degree to which exploitation and callous ruthlessness is present, as reflected in a lack of concern for the feelings and suffering of one's victims.


6. LACK OF REMORSE OR GUILT -- a lack of feelings or concern for the losses, pain, and suffering of victims; a tendency to be unconcerned, dispassionate, coldhearted, and unempathic. This item is usually demonstrated by a disdain for one's victims.


7. SHALLOW AFFECT -- emotional poverty or a limited range or depth of feelings; interpersonal coldness in spite of signs of open gregariousness.


8. CALLOUSNESS and LACK OF EMPATHY -- a lack of feelings toward people in general; cold, contemptuous, inconsiderate, and tactless.


9. PARASITIC LIFESTYLE -- an intentional, manipulative, selfish, and exploitative financial dependence on others as reflected in a lack of motivation, low self-discipline, and inability to begin or complete responsibilities.


10. POOR BEHAVIORAL CONTROLS -- expressions of irritability, annoyance, impatience, threats, aggression, and verbal abuse; inadequate control of anger and temper; acting hastily.



11. PROMISCUOUS SEXUAL BEHAVIOR -- a variety of brief, superficial relations, numerous affairs, and an indiscriminate selection of sexual partners; the maintenance of several relationships at the same time; a history of attempts to sexually coerce others into sexual activity or taking great pride at discussing sexual exploits or conquests.


12. LACK OF REALISTIC, LONG-TERM GOALS -- an inability or persistent failure to develop and execute long-term plans and goals; a nomadic existence, aimless, lacking direction in life.


13. IMPULSIVITY -- the occurrence of behaviors that are unpremeditated and lack reflection or planning; inability to resist temptation, frustrations, and urges; a lack of deliberation without considering the consequences; foolhardy, rash, unpredictable, erratic, and reckless.


14. IRRESPONSIBILITY -- repeated failure to fulfill or honor obligations and commitments; such as not paying bills, defaulting on loans, performing sloppy work, being absent or late to work, failing to honor contractual agreements.


15. FAILURE TO ACCEPT RESPONSIBILITY FOR OWN ACTIONS -- a failure to accept responsibility for one's actions reflected in low conscientiousness, an absence of dutifulness, antagonistic manipulation, denial of responsibility, and an effort to manipulate others through this denial.



16. MANY SHORT-TERM RELATIONSHIPS -- a lack of commitment to a long-term relationship reflected in inconsistent, undependable, and unreliable commitments in life, including marital.


17. JUVENILE DELINQUENCY -- behavior problems between the ages of 13-18; mostly behaviors that are crimes or clearly involve aspects of antagonism, exploitation, aggression, manipulation, or a callous, ruthless tough-mindedness.


18. CRIMINAL VERSATILITY -- A diversity of types of criminal offenses (regardless if the person has been arrested or convicted for them); taking great pride at getting away with crimes.

Do any of these personality traits describe someone you've dated or are dating?

If you answered yes, then you may be as surprised as I was to learn that all 18 traits are actually “clinical traits” of a sociopath (Source: Psychopathy Checklist-Revised, PCL-R; Hare,1991, 2003)... and IF you’ve dated guys with these traits, chances are YOU are attracted to or involved with a SOCIOPATH... yikes!

Now before you freak out too much… I want you to know that you're not alone!

I too was attracted to atleast one " one of a kind " (no wonder my relationships with him only brought me heartache and pain!)…

Turns out there's a BIG difference between a "normal" guy you might date and a sociopath (a sociopath actually has something wrong with their conscience - they either don't have one or it’s severely fragmented).

Sociopaths only care about fulfilling their own needs and desires - selfishness and egocentricity to the extreme. Everything and everybody else is mentally twisted around in their minds as objects to be used in fulfilling their own needs and desires.

RELATIONSHIPS...A Divine Design !

It's funny how as humans we tend at times to focus on the wrongs done to us, ignoring the wrongs we have done to others. When we focus on how in our lives we were the victims of someone else's poor choices and behaviors towards us, we trap ourselves in stasis, thus preventing true growth. Instead of righting the wrongs we have done to someone we care for a great deal, we sometimes over compensate by lavishing our time and attention on new people that we bring into our lives thinking that this will fix our past poor behavior.

The only way to truly grow and thrive in relationships is not to make a mess of things and walk away, but to return to pick up the pieces of what once was. This is where growth and satisfaction reside. Leaving a trail of broken relationships and friendships behind, haunts the soul that wishes to grow.

Spiritual growth involves doing what's right, not what is easy.

All good spiritual leaders have shown us this. Being a good partner or friend takes a great deal of effort because it requires trust in ourselves and faith in the power of love. It's hard for some people to believe that they are truly loveable. This feeling is often times the result of harsh childhoods where parents were overly critical and withheld true affection and praise.

Many people are the victims of poor parenting which if they allow it, will affect the quality of their relationships throughout their lives. Fortunately as adults our parents no longer control our lives as long as we don't let them. By focusing on past hurts done by our parents we continue to give them power over us. By being able to reject the notion that somehow got implanted in our young brains, that we are not worthy of love, we can move forward into much happier, healthier relationships then we had as children.

As adults we truly have power over our lives to create strong bonds and loving relationships that reflect our own inner beauty. When we allow ourselves to really feel our emotions, we open ourselves up to incredible experiences. When our heart chakra is able to function properly, we find ourselves equipped with a new sense of the beauty of the people we care for, and a feeling of peace and patience with them.

What makes love the most powerful emotion is that it empowers us as individuals not only to a true sense of peace and joy, but the ability to heal and forgive wounds inflicted upon us. In turn, there becomes a desire to do the same for those whom we have inflicted wounds. Allowing ourselves to feel love is the best gift we can give ourselves. When we trust in our ability to love, then we trust that the people we love deserve the work it takes to keep things in balance, and when things shatter, to pick up the pieces with them and redesign the relationship.

I just got done watching a very touching video of a good friend of mine jenny back in Catholic school St . Rita back home. She shared to us a a weekend Marriage Encounter she and her husband Erwin had in one of the beautiful Island in the Philippines. I think if only marriage couples have some spiritual time just for themselves , giving time to reflect on things that they have for one another. Here in America, we are always busy working , doing other things that we forget the most important people in ourlives.. our love ones. So many distractions that pulling each others apart. The Lying, the nagging , the dishonesty etc.. i could go on ...
Our EGO and PRIDE gets in the way that we forgot the love that brought US together. We then not only lose ourself but our partners as well.

WHAT MAKES A HAPPY HOME???? TREAT EACH OTHER WITH LOVE AND RESPECT.

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

You are a beautiful human being, Ann !!!

Here is a beautiful message for you today my filipina friend :

The Angels of Protection and Beauty wants to help you in every way to simplify your life so that you may find happiness and love in all the things you do. They want you to be willing to take care of yourself, treat yourself with the most care and concern. Not to look elsewhere or in someone to give you the love, care and concern you truly desire.

You are a beautiful human being, your inner child yearns for your love, attention, and passion of life. Today, your inner child wants to feel some nurturing. Take a walk outdoors, relax in your favorite chair, lay on the floor and take some deep breaths, call on your Angels for help and assistance in all areas of your life and well-being.

Remember nothing is too hard or too difficult for the Angels.

You may think there is some special way to connect with your Angels. All you have to do is simply ' ASK THEM ' out loud or mentally for help and they will begin. Remember once you ask, work on letting it go to the higher realms so they can take care of it and your request.

When you work on your relationship with YOU, all your other relationships begin to shift and get better!

YOU ARE VERY LOVED!

Blessings to you and yours~
W.B.D.

~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~*~*~*~*~~*

Thank you so much my friend... OMG , I am Speechless!!! Yeah, I've been around some negative people and I refused to be back there again. They made me forget who I really am ...I've been so busy of only them then worsts they dragged me along with their misery.
I know I am beautiful person inside and out and still being reminded by my friends growing up back home. It is time!! Enough is Enough from those people!!
I choose to be HAPPY and BE BEAUTIFUL again.

Love and Light,
Ann

We have something in common!!!

Ok I have to blog this one ! This is not the very first time i was actually told i look like the person... I am not going to elaborate even more what happened today but it was so funny and I recieved a message on my facebook too!!

Ok anyone would know Tia Carrere is right? Well, Someone sent me her pics along with my pics that was copied from my facebook profile.

Tia Carrera grew up in Hawaii but She is A Chinese , Filipino , Spanish descent.


Maria Antonette is A Chinese ,Filipino and Spanish descent as well.


TIA


ANN



LMAO!! Enough!!! I'm Gluttoning here.. heheh..I am in heaven now ohhhhh 'kkkkkkk.
Well Thanks by the way to everyone who thinks all these years that I do look like her. Although back home in the Philippines when i was in my college days , I was told few times that i do look like Tetchie Agbayani ( A Filipina Playboy centerfold in the 70's i think). Unfortunately, At that time i wasn't really proud about it, due to back home during that time filipino thinks she was a disgraced to our country. and Of course, my boyfriend then think it was so eeffinggg HOT that people say that i do look like her!


I was surprised that i was also asked tonight.. what's my plan?? At firsts i was...wtf???
Ok ,,Here's my plan...First of all, Well, Im hoping and praying that my back will get straighten out soon ,
Like I said from my other blog alot of what happened 10 yrs ago is repeating itself!
Therefore, I am going to start taking care of ME NOW for awhile,
Meaning back to the gym and then, Back in the Saddle again, whatever that means!! LOL
That's when i get back to CA baby!!! (so watch out!)




Well, Someday i will have my legacy continues that would carry on my looks and talents...my 2 beautiful daughters...Angeliviv and Aisha... Beauty and Brain....German, Russian, Italian, Scottish, Filipino, Chinese, Spanish BEAUTIES...did i forget anything???

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

Thought for the day

"If a fellow isn't thankful for what he's got,

He isn't likely to be thankful for what he's going to get."

Beautiful day , had a some color today - lol

Feeling a little bit better - Ready to go back to work.
And I can't wait to get back in the Saddle baby, Heeeyyyeeeeeahhhhh!!!

Me and My Baby Big Boy James....

Love and Light,
Ann

Thought for The Day....

“To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering, one must not love. But then, one suffers from not loving. Therefore, to love is to suffer; not to love is to suffer; to suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy, then, is to suffer, but suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be happy, one must love or love to suffer or suffer from too much happiness.” Woody Allen

A lot of truth there, isn't there? LOL. But when you think about it, he's dead on. To love IS to suffer, to love IS to be happy, so are we all emotionally programmed to be masochists?

Who among us has not found that in order to really "feel" love, we also must know pain. It's a vicious cycle, isn't it? In order to fully experience love, one must be willing to risk pain. Most of us do find it worthwhile to take that risk. So I guess Mr. Allen is correct in that we do love to suffer! LOL!

Hope that your Friday is bringing you a bright start to a Happy Weekend!

Sending you all alot of Love and Light,
Ann

Learning why you attract the people that you love in your life

( Thanks Dr. D this is very helpful to alot of Us)

I have been trying to write this blog all day. The hardest thing for people to understand that the person that they have attracted into their lives is exactly who they think they deserve. It is a hard pill to swallow when the relationship is going through rough times. Remember that no one can make you feel a certain way. Only you can make yourself feel a certain way and it is all based on your interpretation of the situation.

FIRST OF ALL.........
The initial attraction to a person serves as a way to hook you into the situation. What you find out later about the person is what you are dealing with inside. Yes people express their issues differently but the issues are the same. What frustrates you about the person that you love is what you need to heal within yourself.

If your partner is not honest, emotionally available, cheating, angry,etc. These are the issues that you must heal. You have to heal trust, being totally emotionally present meaning say what you really feel. Not saying how you feel because you are afraid of losing them is the same as not being honest. We constantly mimic what our partner is putting out to us. Remember we just have a different way of expressing it.

It is easy to bash the other party and say that they are wrong or they need to change,etc. if you do a Byron Katie worksheet, it will come back to you also. So learn not to bash your partner because they are your mirror. What you say about them, you have to say about yourself. We are always in perfect alignment with whom we love/dating.

If you find yourself focusing on their flaws, look at how those flaws exist in you. THIS EXERCISE IS NOT ABOUT BEING RIGHT OR WRONG OR JUDGMENT! It is about getting to the truth of the situation.

We can only blame for so long and the pattern repeats until we take responsibility for our role in the relationship. You can not move on until you learn what you need to learn about yourself and heal. with every relationship, it is important to look at what you learned about yourself. It makes no sense to blame the other party because they can not do anything to you without your consent. Find out why you consented to being treated in a way that you did not like. Heal that fear.

No these are not fun situations but it is the only way to get closer to who you really are. I hear form people all the time that they want a real love. A real relationship. BE CAREFUL WHAT YOU ASK FOR! Having a real relationship is not about starring into each other's eyes expressing deep love. A real relationship is about healing your own pain through your experience with your partner. It is facing yourself by letting them serve as a mirror. It is letting love hurt and feeling fear and mistrust than healing it all.

This is what a spiritual relationship is. Remember you are waiting on you and only you when it comes to relationships. The other party will show when you are ready for them to show.

" INTUITIONS....My Divine Gift"

I want to give you some feedbacks ....

When i was 16 yrs old I was told by my mom's friend who a chruch choir member old lady that I have a gift of Intuitions. At that time, I didn't have a clue what was she talking about -Of course, I didn't really pay attention to that.

3 years ago A very gifted Reiki Master, Healer and Remote viewer i've met said the very same thing. She actually seen some events in my past that I took all the signs forgranted. She was right , I was in shocked! There were incidents in my past on my love and relationship that my Intuition was 100% accurate. She explained to me that my strong gifts are specializes in romance only. To be quite frankly, I wanted to wrong on this one due to it hurts when i look on my exes eyes ,i see visions, when i hold there hands i feel their guilt and grieve trying to hide things from me. Sometimes i can't stop myself from insisting the truth from them even though i already know the truth. It will be very hard for me to trust someone I knew they are lying to me without a doubt. Like I used to warned my exes ...there's nothing you can hide from me , I would know and feel it. Again, I was right. Funny even other men i've met before i see signs , visions and intuitions but i guess, i didn't really care as much as im suppose to that I just ignored those signs.

Well a year ago I was told by this person some interesting stuff so this year I've finally met her in person in CA . She is a Visionary , A Healer, A Spiritualist, Reiki Master, and Remote Viewer as well. Oppps did i mention, She is a Great lawyer too. I almost fell off my chair when she sees a very sad and dramatic events happened and actually feeling everything. She was getting a grasp of air and was telling me every smal details how the events occured that day in the past . Mind you without giving her any info at all. I mean , Nothing!

She then educated me about my gifts that my intuitions will get stronger as i reached my 40th bday. It will be slowly at first she said but i will also develop Visions as time goes by , and this is something I can't ignore ...where i see flashes of what's going to happen or flashbacks of what had happened already.
I must admit, she was right. Alot of times, I hated it because I don't want to be right. I have warned some people from work and friends this past 8 mos. on things and they come back to me and asked me how did i know????

One of the things i honestly don't like is seeing something or someone no one else can see ..Kinda like the sixth sense movie . Which at one point at work i had one incident and confirmed from janitors who had been working there for years about what i saw. I was in shocked and crying when i've learned that the person i saw used to work there and already passed away. I know this is gonna be difficult on me from now on ..I pray i won't have to see one again. Never again.This something I can't denied, hide and even ignored anymore.

You see . . . NOT everyone is a TRUTH seeker! There are many people who do unethical things . . . there might even be things that you do, that you may even bend the rules a little. We all have something we would rather not have others know about us. Like I don't go around telling everyone that I'm an Intuitive or see Visions. . . and sometimes, I really hope they don't read my blogs!

LOL!

So everyone has SOMETHING to hide it seems.

When you become more and more enlightened, your intuition or your sixth sense becomes more acute . . . NO, you are losing your mind!

But where do you get validation? How do you get CLARIFICATION . . . especially when it is unethical, or it is something that someone is trying to hide? Usually, a person will not give up their secret willingly . . . Sure, they might give up SOMEONE else's secret . . . but not their own skeleton . . . lol . . . .

There are very few truth seekers, I am finding in my own personal environment. Just because someone is kind one minute, does not mean that they are kind all the time. Just because someone tells you some TRUTH, does not mean that everything that comes out of their mouth is TRUTH.

If you are getting an ODD feeling . . . well, WRITE THAT DOWN!!!

I cannot emphasize more strongly to my friends how IMPORTANT it is that you have a personal journal. You NEED to be writing down you dreams, your impressions, your feelings. As you re-read what you have written, and time has gone by, you can go back and put a big "R" next to comments or impressions that you received, this big "R" stands for REAL!!!

If you find that your impression was NOT accurate . . . and there will be some of those, you can put a big "F" next to the paragraph, sentence, or impression that your wrote about. This is for FALSE . . . What you will be doing is honing in on your intuition! What kind of energy feeling did you have when you experienced your impressions?

Let me explain to you what happens when you become enlightened . . . It can be frightening! You can become paranoid of your situation, people, issues, things that are happening around you. There have been times, that I truly thought I was losing my mind!!! Because there was not a single person on the face of the earth that I could TRUST!!!

I isolated myself. But that didn't help . . . well in some ways it did, but it really was a waste of time . . . cause I got lonely, then when I finally did start mingling with people, and my intuition would tell me things . . . I would ignore the signs, cause I didn't want to be lonely!!!

Listen and obey your intuition!!! It is NOT a BAD thing!!! It is a GIFT!!! It takes courage to check yourself, and STRENGTH to stand up to the TRUTH.

Some people they have secrets, and being enlightened is like you can see right through people, but you really don't want to see right through people cause people want to keep their secrets . . . but you can't help it cause . . . well, your becoming enlightened!

Love and Peace,
Ann